So the past few weeks have been has been a bit of an up and (mostly) down experience.
The high points have been fairly good-I mean my bro's got engaged and we had a nice meal which I actually managed to enjoy without being too down. Always good.
But I have spent most of the time feeling sorry for myself, in general-I mean, im 20-Im single, live at home and am unemployed. Woo. So ive kinda tried to ignore it and do anything to distract myself, in particular by searching for a job. In a period of economic crisis. Yes im a genius. But I have managed to sign up for the dole. Ill even get it in about 3 weeks. I say again, woo.
Its the small things that are getting me through. I seem to have taken over the dog walking responsibilities, which means I can spend up to an hour walking with my ipod on. Or spend hours reading books or playing on the ps2. Other people would look down on me as some kinda nerd for doing this-it's been done before. When I shut myself away like this, people don't realise that im using this to escape from what I may not want to face. Saying that, I have noticed that Mum seems to notice. How do mothers always know?
Anyway, tom we pick up my stuff from the pool, and close the door on that part of my life a little more.
So here I sit, watching Kerrang's top 100 rock videos, waiting for tom and trying to distract myself from everything...............
..........wonder if I could change my name by deed poll to November Rain..............
--For Pony--
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