"That redhead's really starting to piss me off..."

YO JOE

"ahem"

As you may have guessed, I watched GI JOE tonight. Its brainless, has little plot and full of over the top action.

So I loved it(Sienna Miller in a catsuit? Whats not to love?)

So this means I am now at a record good mood of.......6 days. Things are looking up:)

But I am worried that in past months, I am returning to ways past, or worse, of my parents.

Everyone has commented to me that I've become overly sarcastic. Im becoming more grumpy. And anti-social.

Then i figured it out-nightsout withdrawal syndromStudies have shown that humans, most of them anyway, are social animals. So me feeling sorry for myself aint gona help no-one, with no-one certainly wanting to help me.

Luckily for me, it was jakes birthday.

So we went to town.

Lets just leave it at we all had a good time and huge hangovers to boot:)

But since then im on the up. So morale of the story-nothing helps you feel better than getting pissed out of your head:P

"For Pony"

Life's on the up!

So.....just finished four days of work at euroworld.......best place I have EVER worked. If the work wasn't so hard, I'd do it all the time, because the atmosphere there is brilliant-and I mean that, despite two women, (you know who you are, Im not going to name and shame you just yet) who seem to blame me for everything. Including when im not in the room or not paying attention. Its nice, though, to have a place where the abilities you learn in school(ie elastic band warfare) finally come into play:P

But news........I have a job interview tomorrow! Shock horror! Three weeks of searching and one interview............which will probably come to nothing anyway.

However this last week has put me in a better place than my last post. Getting out the house and earning some money has cheered me up no end. and on that note I must apologise......

My last post was incredibly emo-y and I shall never post anything like that again. I am determined to delete all records of it, so you probably wont know what im talking about if you read this. I still need to apologise though. It was that awful.

But I have also thought of a project to fill my otherwise empty hours-when I was coming back from work with dad(being an anti-social bastard and listening to my ipod) , realise I have so many albums that I've bought for just one track, and never bothered listening to the rest of the album......next time I'm free, I'll think i'll listen to one or two.....who knows, I might even blog about it....

Before I finish up for the night in anticipation of my interview tomorrow, I thought id also put in something I found. as you might know, my sign off thingy I use I've piked from an online comic called looking for group, and it never fails to make me laugh(on the rare chance you are reading this, please dont sue guys.....please)I would thoroughly recommend it to anyone

They put up a design for a blanket on the website.......I think I want it tattooed on me......

(check it out at the top:))

--For Pony--

(Trust me)

So its been a while since I posted. And while I realise there's a chance no-one will read them, I still feel kinda guilty.

So the past few weeks have been has been a bit of an up and (mostly) down experience.

The high points have been fairly good-I mean my bro's got engaged and we had a nice meal which I actually managed to enjoy without being too down. Always good.

But I have spent most of the time feeling sorry for myself, in general-I mean, im 20-Im single, live at home and am unemployed. Woo. So ive kinda tried to ignore it and do anything to distract myself, in particular by searching for a job. In a period of economic crisis. Yes im a genius. But I have managed to sign up for the dole. Ill even get it in about 3 weeks. I say again, woo.

Its the small things that are getting me through. I seem to have taken over the dog walking responsibilities, which means I can spend up to an hour walking with my ipod on. Or spend hours reading books or playing on the ps2. Other people would look down on me as some kinda nerd for doing this-it's been done before. When I shut myself away like this, people don't realise that im using this to escape from what I may not want to face. Saying that, I have noticed that Mum seems to notice. How do mothers always know?

Anyway, tom we pick up my stuff from the pool, and close the door on that part of my life a little more.

So here I sit, watching Kerrang's top 100 rock videos, waiting for tom and trying to distract myself from everything...............

..........wonder if I could change my name by deed poll to November Rain..............

--For Pony--

So yeah, been ages since i last posted, thought id post again. The reason? Yeah Ive got some packing which i really should be doing.

So it actually appears that leaving uni is harder than it looks-ive tried packing up some stuff, but I was meant to be leavig today. OOPS. And I cant really leave tom either, seeing as I still have to organise the handing in of my kit to the otc. Looks like I wont be home till wednesday.

All of which has been just dragging me into a pit of despair-the more I try to do, the more there is to do.....

And to this the fact that Ive slowly being saying goodbye to all of my friends from uni. I said goodbye to the ferndale crew earlier today, as I didnt intend to be around tom evening. Now it looks like I'm gonna be stuck here on my own all day tom, cos I dont want to say goodbye again.

Not a very happy life is it?

But anyways, I have had some fun over the past couple of weeks-I went to the beach(and as anyone who knows me will testify, I HATE the beach usually) with all of the guys who were still around-Gaz, Jess, Sarah, etc, etc. Had a really nice day with only a small amount of sunburn. All good:) Cept the freezin dip in the sea. THAT was cold.

My older brother was also up in the pool last week-so free meal and a pint courtesy of him, thankyouverymuch. Was good to see him and catch up, and also to check if he was still sane after asking his girlfriend to marry him-turns out he was, so congrats to Ian and Claire:P

So thats enough of pretending to pack and time to start some actual packing-hopefully next blog will be at home.....

--For Pony--

Sign post to tommorrow

So the last week or so has been monumental for me-not because I actually did some revision, but cos i had to make the hardest decision of my life so far.

But to start with, good news! Itfitlered through to me that my older brother finally popped the big question to Claire.(Cue awwwwww's from the audience) Really couldnt be happier for them:):)

However, this happening finally decided for me, almost, a point on which I have been mulling over for a long time-no matter how much fun you can have at uni, real life is gonna catch up with you eventually like the metaphorical hare and tortoise. And looking back at what Ive enjoyed and achieved this past year has really brought some sobering facts to light, with all the unpleasantness of a turd in the face.

Uni is not for me. At least, not at this point in time.

There, said it. I cant seem to enjoy what im doing, and as much as the course interests me, I dont want to be stuck doing something I dont enjoy. Once I admitted to this, everyone ive confessed it to has been really supportive(including the parents, though I do feel mum used a tone of voice that conveyed so much disappointment it would cause a legion of insecure teenage girls to drown in their own tears). Now Im stuck with trying to get a job so I can afford to stay here next year, or try to find someone to fill my spot in the house.

But this is real life-it sucks, but its time I finally grew up. And if that means i need to be constantly scared shitless and work hard so be it.

(and yes, before anyone thinks to have a go, I know I am a whiny manchild. Get over it. I needed to get this out of my system.)

--For Pony--

fascinating

(This is the second time ive written this-damn network that cuts off every 5 mins if u dont do anything.......)

So, yesterday we went to see the new Star Trek film-in a word, brilliant! I think its a brilliant reboot of the francise, even with the confusing camera control during space battles and the criminal underuse of Simon Pegg as Scotty-I want more of him in the next one!!!!!

There was one thing which confused me though-Uhura and Spock? The pointy-eared, emotionless boring conversationalist? Probably started with Spock looking at her and thinking "She looks hot in that uniform, and it is logical to think that she would look even hotter out of it-so logically speaking, i should get off with her" Star Trek, the dirty secrets.....

Gotta warn you, just read back this last paragraph and made me vomit a little and feel all girly. So spit while reading it or something........

But tha meant that James Tiberius Kirk, the biggest whore in all of sci-fi, didnt get the girl. This confused me until I realised the movie wasnt about him getting a girl made of organic material(would have said human, but didnt seem appropraite seeing how much he's got off with women from alien species. Doing more for different species getting along than the rest of the entire federation) The film is about him getting the one girl he is faithful to-the enterprise. And what better girl could there be? Always, in the words of scotty, gives all shes got and protects him-while also having the lasers and no need to cuddle in bed. Indeed many Trekkies would probably want to marry the enterprise if ths was pointed out.........I wonder how many trekkies are married to fellow trekkies who have changed their name to enterprise? Gotta be one-dad called Kirk and their children Spock, Bones, Scotty and redshirtwhodiesinanobviousplottwist.

Poor woman, and poor children.

If I ever marry a woman, her names gonna be Serenity:P

--For Pony--

say WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

Right, so little gap between these two posts......i might have accidentally forgot my password. heh....

But anyway-I feel the need to rant once more:P

On weds, utilising the absurdly awesome orange wednesdays, we went to see wolverine. Before i get bogged down, letme say it was pretty awesome:) i mean, whats not to like about someone with metal claws and calls everyone bub?(something i am gonna try using myself from now on, despite howmuch of a fanboy it makes me) People can argue that the plot was shocking, but bleh to them.
But what i cant seem to get over is what they did to Deadpool. The crazy, muderous, "merc with a mouth". They started out well-ryan renolds can carry off the whole mouthy bit, but to turn him into a mute killer with SWORDS IN HIS ARMS?? While it is not a full rape of my love for deapool, it still feels like marvel have stuck their hands down my trousers and had a good rummage. I have heard of the ending after the credits(didnt get to see that, was stuck with the crappy one of logan in japan) and all i can hope is that the planned deadpool movie is so much better.

But, this weekend should be fun-Jakus Hadlius might be gracing us with an appearance in the north-havent seen him since easter, so that would be awesome:))

Plus, if he doesnt, all ill have to do is revise.......

Godspeed mate!

--For Pony--